Fan Fiction: A Jealous Rage! Chapter Forty Eight

Finding myself!

                                                          Chapter Forty Eight

Through my life I trusted you, I had faith, I had belief.  When I had all of this god, how did it all go so wrong? Was my faith not true enough or was my belief in you not strong enough that you had to take my baby away from me.  Why didn't you just leave me to die what was your need to save me?  Why me, why did you do this to me?  Here I am alive and I don’t have the will to live all I feel is this emptiness inside of me there is no emotion or care just a complete void filling up in my heart.
  
I can never let go of that horrible image the gun against my head hearing horrible obscenities being shouted at me, the words were like a chain saw ripping into my ear piece by piece.  I knew my baby could hear I knew he would be frightened, yes he was my little love kicked me he kicked me for the first time and I felt him, you made me feel him how cruel can you be knowing you were taking him away from me only moments later, yet you still made me feel. Why did you do this to me, do you actually care god what you do, do you? Right now I don’t understand it all, I don’t understand you and I don’t understand your ways you took away the most precious part of me betraying me while the only man that I've ever loved, hurt me the most.

Was I such a bad person that Ram didn’t even let me see my own baby not even for a glance; I can never forgive him for this my heart is just broken, it’s broken forever.  I didn't have the chance to touch my baby, to feel him close to me, to look at his little feet or count his tiny little fingers. How I want to caress my son to touch his nose, his lips, his eyes.  I want to hold him to my bosom and tell him mama loves you baby mama loves you so very much but my beautiful baby boy is no more he's gone from me forever, it’s all over.  I hate you Ram right now you repulse me so much I can’t even bare to look at you.  Each day you come to see me yet I don’t want to see you, I shudder when you to touch me so I am forced to close my eyes pretending to be asleep.  I know when you are here I know the way you watch me and I know the moment when you leave. I suffer my pain in silence because no one can understand what I am going through, not god, not even you Ram.  Its been ten days that I am in hospital it's been the worst ten days of my life.  Today I am suppose to be coming home but I don’t want to go home I just want to sit here on this bed and feel nothing.

In this continued somber mood Priya wrapped her hands around her legs, her chin resting on her knee has she silently thought of her life, waging a battle in her head against god and against Ram. Gentle tears slid down her cheek has she sniffled her nose wiping away her tears knowing it was that time, time for her to get ready, time for her to face the world, a world that she hated.   Like a lost little girl she got of the bed dragging her body to move picking out her change of clothing she went into the bathroom locking herself inside wanting complete privacy.  Removing her gown she undressed herself exposing her semi nude state in front of the mirror, a mirror that never told lies.  She touched her shoulder that was strapped with a dressing to her wound from her chest upwards.  What would the scar look like once the dressing was removed, would there be a life long blemish on her forever would her body ever be the the same again like she use to know it . Lowering her hand to her stomach she wanted to feel something but there was nothing to feel no bulge to touch just a flat smooth stomach that showed no outward signs that she was ever pregnant. 

With a deep sigh of regret she went to her vanity bag taking out her hair brush she slowly brushed out the knots twisting her hair up with a clasp.  Carefully she slipped on her loosely fitted clothing feeling the need to cover her ugliness from the world.  Facing the mirror, the mirror that always spoke the truth she turned on the faucet letting the  water run through while rinsing her hands in its gushing water. She cupped the water into her palm splashing its coldness on her face the bite shocking on her skin, who is this stranger looking at me she asked herself, am I Priya Sharma or am I Priya Kapoor or could I be plain Priya with no identity?  For the first time she took notice she had no sindoor on, with her forefinger she touched against the parting in her hair, then she touched her neck for her mangalsutra that was no longer there feeling the emptiness on her finger she felt bereft of everything that spoke of her marital status. Did she really care she asked herself, do I really want to care?  No I don’t because I deserve none of this; I am nothing she spoke out aloud to the mirror, you don’t need to remind me because I already know. 

Turning away from the harshness of the mirror she opened the door walking out into her empty room.  Going back onto the bed she sat up straight with her back against the pillows waiting……. waiting ………. the wait, the silence all seemed nerve wrecking so she switched on the television changing the channels without a need to  actually watch so she flippantly threw the remote control on the bed, the channel locked in on a music video by Pink and Nate Ruess the thoughtful lyrics was a rush of emotions that spoke of the insecurities of love, just give me a reason had a story to share. 

 

 

Right from the start
You were a thief you stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep
Things you never say to me
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

The ache in her heart and her reasons for wanting to let go Priya was choked up.  Shut up Pink what do you know, but did these lyrics actually strike a cord that seemed to close to the truth Priya?  I don't want to hear this anymore go away Pink just go away. She took the remote control switching off the television just as the doors to her room opened and in walked the two people that mattered, her parents.  Her papa with just his smiles alone could melt away all of her trouble’s, how's my darling little girl he asked, coming to the bed he dropped a kiss on her fore head while her mother sat on the bed next to her taking her hand in hers, she brought it to her lips Priya I’m so glad that you can finally go home today. 

Priya forced a smile between her lips, a smile that had no meaning but was just there while the door to her room opened once again.
Her smile froze she didn’t have the courage to look because she knew it was Ram so she kept her focus to the foot of her bed.  Shipra asked Ram, did the doctor's say that they discharging Priya, can we finally take her away from here? He silently nodded his head his eyes focused on his Priya, she squeezed her mother’s hand for re-assurance unsure of herself she glanced at her papa.

She was like a frightened little girl afraid of the big bad wolf holding her breath she asked, papa please can I come home with you I really miss you papa. In a shocked surprise Sudhir looked at his wife they both glanced at Ram unsure what to say, quickly recovering Sudhir said off course beta why not, off course you can come home it’s your home too you don’t need to ask.  Thank you papa, thank you so much.   If someone had dropped a bomb right next to Ram he would off stood not moving he didn't say a word just gritted his teeth holding down on his back jaw the beat quite evident of his displeasure, such was his hurt or was it anger that he needed to get out desperately for some air so he did the only decent thing he could do and that was to excuse himself so he said, excuse me while I go sign the release forms. 

Priya didn't want to come home with him what exactly did that mean, she didn’t even have the guts to look at him, how could you Priya, how could you do this to us?  Every day I come with some hope that you would find it in your heart to see that I am just has broken as you are, I'm sorry that you never got to see our baby I wish I could erase what happened, I wish I could erase away that ugly moment from our life.  You punishing me Priya, you punishing me in the cruelest way possible by shutting me out.

Holding on to his emotions he walked away not even wanting to look back at her, being a possessive husband he knew very well what this moment felt like, it felt like shit.  He hated to let go of her but right now it was a question of her well being.  The doctors had warned him about her fragile state which he was well aware off but he’ll be damned if she ever thinks that she will shut him out and by the looks of things it was quite evident by the days of her endless silence she was on a mission to rule him out of her life.  Think again Mrs Kapoor, think again if I will ever let that happen. This Ram and this Priya will be together forever and that's my god damn promise to you.
 

Once all the formalities of Priya's discharge had been completed Ram drove them to the Sharma house.  The drive was in silence just the pitter patter of light rain drops could be heard.  Priya’s father sat in the front passenger seat while Priya sat in the back seat next to her mother.  Through his review mirror Ram kept glancing at Priya she had a blank haunted look that didn't seem to matter to her, she stared through the wet window not really noticing just completely lost in her own thought as they drove pass in a cavalcade, an entourage of bodyguards following them.  How do I break this icy wall that she is determined to erect between us without crushing her even further, Ram’s mind was very disturbed thinking so many thought’s. His eyes were focused on the road while his heart beat had its own will beating for its love who sat in the backseat with no  interest or care.  Earlier at the hospital he’d called home to complain to his mother, ma Priya doesn’t want to come home she wants to go to her parent’s house he sounded like a little lost boy who's best friend didn't want to play with him.  The calm and ever serene Krishna Kapoor always knew the right words to say, its ok beta it’s only natural that Priya would want to stay with her parents for a little while.  Don’t be upset my son all she wants is her own parents, after all she's been through a lot she needs to recover so let her be, give the family the space that they need with her after all its their daughter too.  Look at you, you so big yet you can't stay away from your own mother. They both laughed at her heartfelt joke so don’t worry everything will be ok my son and please give Priya our love and tell her we all miss her.  Always listening to his mother’s sound advice, off course there was some truth to her words. 

Not even realizing it he’d reached the residential apartment block where Priya’s family lived, he hadn’t even stopped the car when the bodyguards were at the car door opening it for Priya.  From up above and all around curious neighbors stopped to watch the Priya Sharma that they once knew, who was now the famous Priya Kapoor making the news headlines daily.  Seeing her after such a long time was indeed sad  after knowing what she had suffered. Priya was always a breath of fresh air, pleasant and caring all they could do was look at her with sympathy.  Ignorant to her surroundings and covered under umbrellas they made their way into the apartment. At the front door Natasha and Karthik stood inside ready to welcome their most important family member.  Natasha smiled at her in such genuine love for her sister-in-law,  oh Priya I am so glad to see you home, me to Di me too Karthik said with tears in his eyes for his sister.  Priya stepped forward to enter but Natasha stopped her.  Not like that Priya she shook her head and smiled first it’s my duty to welcome you home the traditional way. Priya smiled has Natasha completed the welcome home ritual, now my dear bhabhi you may enter. Priya stepped into a warm brotherly hug welcome home Di Karthik said, welcome home. She smiled there were tears of emotions she touched his cheek I missed you Karthik and what about me Natasha chided, everyone laughed Priya touched her nose you too choti and they both hugged each other. Ram looked on with so much fondness and pride, knowing his choti was here and she would take good care of his Priya.

Shipra said to Priya ok my baby girl now tell me what you want to eat, Priya shook her head nothing ma I’m not hungry.  Shipra scolded her, no you have to eat something Priya. Forced to say just anything Priya said I’m not fussy i'll eat whatever you prepare. Shipra nodded her head and said ok you sit down and I’m going to the kitchen.  Sudhir beckoned to her, come sit down beta Priya looked at her father papa if you don’t mind can I go to my room? He looked at her with concern but off course beta you go rest, she walked off leaving Ram staring at her. Once she was out of sight he took out his phone and called his head of security giving him strict instructions I want two guards stationed on this floor, I want two guards stationed at the entrance of the building and one at the gate also make sure there’s a car and driver waiting here at all times nothing by passes me. Wherever my wife is I want to know about it make sure there is round the clock protection, is that understood, yes sir don’t worry we will ensure Mrs Kapoor gets maximum security we’ll never leave her sight. Ram disconnected the call, excuse me papa he said to Sudhir and walked in the direction of the bedroom. 

Sudhir thought to himself what a world his Ram and Priya came from, all of their lives have changed unknowingly the thought of  Priya nearly dying was like a part of his life ended too. He could never imagine life without her, god whatever happens never let me have to bear the loss of one of my children rather take me  away first.  Sudhir was sensitive to his children’s emotion especially his eldest born and right now his heart told him that she was very troubled, all he could do was console her and when she was strong enough he would ensure that he got her to talk. Maybe when she had her strength back he’d encourage her to join him with his yoga mornings. Before she got married it was their morning routine for some exercise and he wanted at least one day where he could spend with his beloved daughter in the morning freshness just simply bonding like they always do.

In her room of her childhood Priya stood in the middle looking around, everything was just the same, nothing had changed. She remembered the last time she was here only just a few weeks back when her father had asked her to spend the night here and how Ram had come to take her home in the middle of the night.  Taking a deep breath she turned around bumping right into the man of her very thoughts, he gripped her has she faltered I’m so sorry she stammered. What are you sorry for he asked her, she shook her head nothing she said trying to get out of his hold but he didn't let her go. What do you want Priya? She stared at his shiny black shoe and said nothing, I want nothing.  Then ask me what I want he urged her, she didn’t speak, ask me he urged her once again. I’m tired she said I want to lie down, he shook his head I don’t believe you Priya I know you’ve been deliberately shutting me out thinking I’m going away but baby let me make myself clear so that you are with no illusion, this idea of you wanting to stay with your parents I’m entertaining it only because of them and if you think for one minute that I’m going to walk away from you, think again Mrs Kapoor because however hard you try I will be right there by your side.  She didn’t want to hear him speak, she didn’t want to her his words twisting her body out of his hold leave me she said, leave me alone. He pulled her even closer putting his hand in his pocket he took out her jewelry I believe you are missing something Mrs Kapoor, with much love he fastened her mangalsutra around her neck she was shocked to feel it back in its place, this belongs here forever he said have no doubt about it. Taking out her ring he slipped it on her finger and never doubt you are always mine.  He took her lips with his kissing her but she refused to kiss him back, he persisted until she couldn’t resist. On her own accord she wrapped her arms around his neck he pulled her closer into him the kiss went on and on.  Coming up for some air he said come home with me baby, come back to our home.  She stiffened her body let me go she said, let me go.  I’ll let you go this time Mrs Kapoor but remember there’s only one place you belong, and that’s with me in our home.

He walked out, leaving Priya breathing heavy you scoundrel, you fiend she said under her breath, how dare you, how dare you touch me she was angry with herself that she had given in to a moment of weakness. She walked out onto the wet balcony the rain had stopped she looked down and there he was walking to his car.  Almost like he knew he was being watched he glanced up directly at her, she tried to look away but was compelled to look at him. For five solid minutes they stood looking at each other with their hearts breaking apart, but she refused to budge. He turned away getting into his car driving off leaving behind the love of his life in the care of her parents as he headed out to Kapoor Industries in a wild savage mood.

When he got to his office, he shut the door with force sitting behind his desk he switched on his computer going through his emails, rummaging on his desk for a file that seemed to be missing.  Jenny he yelled, yes sir she came running, where is the Singhania file he demanded to know? sir it was on your desk well it’s not here now so go find it he shouted, you can never leave things where it should be.  I’m so sorry sir, she quickly looked through the files finding it right where it always was, here it is sir she handed it back to him. He took the file without saying much that will be all he said, yes sir she walked out closing the door has she breathed a sigh of relief.  Hey Jenny what’s with the boss sounds like he's in a foul mood?  Just leave it Atul you know he’s under lots of pressure, yes I know he said shaking his head guess we in for a long day.  Well they were all prepared for their bosses mood swings ultimately Ram Kapoor was the best boss to work for so they didn’t mind when sometimes he flew off the handle because right now they knew he was under lots of personal stress and tension.  Fifteen minutes later Ram yelled for Jenny she came running again.  Where are the minutes from the Dubai conference call?  It’s saved on my computer sir I’ll print it for you right now, did I not ask you to have this done a while ago, I know sir but you weren’t here. listen Jenny whether I was here or not I said to get the damn minutes ready and you should off done exactly that. She stammered I’m sorry sir I’ll get it for you right now, she rushed off to her work station printing the minutes and within seconds she was back, here it is sir I’m really sorry. Putting his hands against his head he massaged the ache in his temple, no Jenny I’m sorry I know I’m in a bad mood and I shouldn’t be shouting at you, she smiled at him it’s ok sir, can I get you something for your headache? He looked at her yes please Jenny that might just help a bit.

Later on that afternoon Ram wanted to speak to Priya but then he realized she didn’t have her phone with her, so he called the house phone. Natasha answered  the call yes bhai are you calling to check up on your favorite choti, she knew that wasn’t the case. He laughed why else would I call? Well let me think maybe there’s a certain somebody else you want to speak too she asked him playfully. Well if you insist he said can I speak to Priya, no bhai you can’t. Why not he asked a bit taken aback, because bhai she’s sleeping.  Oh ok he said did she eat, yes bhai she ate and did she take all her medication, yes bhai I gave her all her medication, I see he said, anything else bhai Natasha asked, no nothing choti thank you he said, what for bhai, thanks for taking care of Priya for me.  Bhai you don’t need to thank me it’s my duty don’t worry really Priya will be ok and when she wakes up I will tell her you called. Feeling a bit calm he said thanks choti byeee he disconnected the call.  He picked up his office phone and buzzed Jenny,  yes sir, Jenny please contact the Apple store and get them to deliver an Iphone 5 to the office, I want it today . Yes I will do that right away sir.

Very late that night Ram left the office not wanting to go home, he drove with no direction in mind but the car had its own direction guiding him along, till he found where he needed to be.  The light in her bedroom was on he could see her outline moving around in her room. Getting out of the car he stood against it watching her while he took out a packet of Marlboro cigarettes from his pocket, leisurely taking out a cigarette from an already opened pack, smoking was a bad habit he’d given up almost five years ago and here he was back to his smokes between his lips, lighting it up and casually tainting the air around him maybe his lungs too but who really cares, hmmmmm that does feel so good, so relaxing why did I ever give this up?  He tried to listen for sounds that shouldn’t be here while his eyes were hooked on that damning room, the doors to the balcony were left opened while the gentle cool breeze blew on the softness of the curtain billowing it in and out. Somewhere from one of the other apartments he could hear music playing. Under his breath he said, come on baby look out, I know you love me look out just this once baby I want to see you, please do this just for me, the smoke twirled in circles patience seemed to be the order of the night.

Priya was in her room changing into her pajamas, it was late but she wasn’t tired because she had an afternoon nap, maybe she’ll find a book to read. She buttoned the last button on her pajamas top remembering she needed to close the balcony door. Amazing how the weather changes, earlier in the day there was rain and now it was all cleared. She walked out into the cool night leaning both her hands against the balcony rail bending her head up looking up into the stars trying to count a few, her hair was opened it lifted slightly away from her face has the gentle cool breeze kissed her neck.  Holding the cigarette midway to his lips did he actually breathe, he couldn’t take his eyes of her god she was naturally beautiful suddenly Priya felt an intensity of being watched she looked down standing against the car was Ram, a cigarette in his hand.  Did time actually stop they stood looking at each other for minutes from the apartment above music played out into the night and all they could hear right now was the lyrics from earlier with Pink and Nate Reuss haunting the recess of her mind while Nate continued singing questioning his lover's state of mind.  Did it actually ring a bell Ram wondered, because really Priya I don't understand why you doing this to us?

I’m sorry I don't understand where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
Oh we had everything
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everything
And its all in your mind
Yeah but this is happening
You've been having real bad dreams
Oh oh
You used to lie so close to me
Oh oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love, oh our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
Your not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

Priya found it difficult to believe Ram was smoking again, he had given up smoking way before she had come into his life to see him standing there with a cigarette between his lips was a shock to her system.  What are you doing Ram she asked silently? I don't care what he does she chided herself, I don't care  at all.  There was an annoying voice that seemed to be laughing at her hahahahaha really Priya who are you fooling because the problem is you care to much. Damn you Ram she said, damn you to hell she turned without caring to look shutting the balcony door she went and sat on the edge of the bed to calm down, but her heart rate increased and twisted knots formed at the pit of her stomach. Why am I doing this she asked herself,  what do I care?  Dammit she gripped the sides of the bedcover stamping her bare feet on the floor in annoyance, what is wrong with me why can't I just let him be, he deserves it for ripping my heart apart. As much has she tried stopping herself it didn't stop her from slipping on her shoe and walking out of her room and out of the apartment cursing herself for being so damn weak? 
 

While Ram stood against his car not moving from his spot I know you coming to me baby, I feel it in here he clutched his chest with hope, come on sweetheart I’m waiting for you and like he knew in his heart she walked out into the open wearing her cream satin pajamas each step she took moving towards him, his heart was thumbing playing out like a drumbeat that didn't need a reason to rhyme. She looked like a god damn angel, a really mad angel at that standing in front of him with daggers in her eyes, why are you here she asked? very casually he said I was passing through, It's a bit out of your way to be passing through she said, he shrugged his shoulder pulling on his cigarette blowing out the smoke.

When did you start smoking she asked him? I'm not sure maybe a few days ago I can't exactly pin point when but he knew exactly when, the day that she broke him into pieces the day she found out their baby had died.  She said to him do you know smoking is bad for your health. He laughed, do you care he asked her?  She looked him in the eye no I don’t care I was just giving free advice; oh I see he said well then thank you it’s not needed. Suit yourself she said turning to walk away. Priya he called her name and she stopped what she asked not bothering to turn around.  I have something for you, she  turned around in a huff with her hands folded she glared at his smiling face. I have something for you he said again, bending into the car he took out a package, come here he said. 

Not seemingly interested or even excited she slowly walked back to him. He reached his hand out to her, this is for you. What is it she asked, open it he urged her. She opened the package to find the latest Iphone 5 which hadn't even been launched in the Indian stores yet, turning it in her hand she said why are you giving me this? Well you needed a phone, I already have one she said, its broken he told her and then she remembered that damning Friday when she dropped her phone has she was taken hostage.  I don’t want the phone she told him, why he asked her, because I don’t want an Iphone, but I want you to have an Iphone, well I just don’t want too she said adamantly. Well then what do you want he asked her?  I don't know I am not sure sticking with her stubborn attitude. Then keep it till you sure, he said.  Why are you so persistent she asked him, why are you so stubborn he asked? Well I didn’t ask you for a phone, for crying out loud then throw the damn thing away if you don’t want it.

We're collecting dust but our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Staring at the ground she didn't say a word while he observed her body language that told him a millions times over how fragile she was in her confused stubborn state.  Finally she spoke in a more softened toned to her voice almost unsure of herself she asked him, are you going to quit smoking and he responded back with a question of his own are you going to keep the phone? They both had their reason to question and they both had their reasons to care.  She slowly nodded her head with a slight lop sided smiled he threw the cigarette on the tar and squashed it under his shoe, their answers confirmed.

 

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

 

Not giving up on this opportunity he asked her simply come home? She shook her head this is my home and once again turned to leave, he caught her hand reeling her to him their eyes burning into each other, he asked her again come home with me? No she said again. A gentle wind picked up has dry wet leaves rustled by.  I love you he said speaking the only thing that mattered and she said to him without a blink I hate you. If you hate me then why are you here? His words seemed to hit a tender spot in her while her eyes was flushed between this love and this so called hate. Let me remind you this is my home, and he said are you asking me to leave? She nodded her head yes I want you to go.  Was it minutes or did it seem like time didn't move a second, ok he said I’ll go but I have a condition. Priya looked at him blankly, what she asked, what's your condition?

Kiss me he said softly. No she whispered I’m not going to kiss you. Not giving up he said then fine I’ll sit here all night. Surprised she said to him don’t be ridiculous Ram go home.  Kiss me he said and I’ll go.  Almost in tears she asked him why are you making this so difficult and he pulled her even closer to him I should be asking you the same question Priya what are you doing to us, why are you making this so difficult baby?  Twisting her hand to get out of his grip let me go Ram, never he said not in this lifetime and not in the next I’ll never let you go. Kiss me he said again, her eyes could slay him alive while his eyes had a purposeful intent, I hate you Ram she said again hoping by a miracle he would just give up and go. 

He took his thumb brushing it over her lips hate me all you want Priya but I don't believe you can, his eyes not leaving the perplexity that shrouded her, she couldn't stop these overwhelming emotions running through her body she tried so hard to be uncaring yet their lips were like a magnetic pull, the only thing that made sense right this moment  has she bridged the gap to kiss him. This weak willed woman that kissed her Ram their tongues were desperate for their connection it felt like years since they locked into each other. He held onto her head plunging deeper into her mouth and she tightened her hold on his back. 

They were so close she could feel every part of him and he could feel every part of her I love you Priya, baby I love you so much he said. Holding her face between his hands tell me you love me, tell me you love me.  She was confused with a myriad of thoughts no she whispered I don’t. Touching her face I can’t live without you Priya I can’t please he sobbed tell me, I need to hear you say it, please baby tell me you love me.  With tears spilling down her cheeks she closed her eyes unable to bear his desperation, she was unable to hold back what she fought most within her mind, simply she said I love you, I love you so much she fell on his chest crying they hugged each other tight the tears seemed an endless flow.  Was it music to his ears hearing the three words that mattered for the existence of his own lifeline. Sweetheart you are my life don’t ever forget it, she sobbed harder into his chest while he looked up into the heavens thanking his lucky star's still holding her protectively within the embrace of his arms. This car park could surely tell stories of these lovers for it seemed their most favored place to make up and this time her stubborn hurt melted at the sight of a cigarette between his lips and that was all it took to get us to this moment in time.

 I have a complaint Mrs Kapoor, what she asked him has her finger circled on his shirt button finding the space in between to touched through his chest.  Feeling every nerve sensation rise within him he whispered against her ear, why didn't you return my call? Her tears were drying up she ignored his question and said to him, you smell of smoke wrinkling up her nose showing her displeasure and you my baby smell just like my love, he breathed softly into her hair inhaling this woman, his woman completely.

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again